get away weekend.

road trip!!

well. kinda. just a day road trip. so. for kyles birthday. he wanted to rent a motorcycle and ride up to snowflake with aaron. but. with the baby coming and us having to save everything! because we have a big huge sum of money that needs to be paid soon. i suggested to kyle that maybe he ask aaron if he could borrow his motorcyle so that he could still ride up there. because i thought that is what he wanted to do. was like. ride the bike up there. and. he said he had fun. but. i'm not sure if it was that much fun. because.... our trip was a little bit. sketchy.

kyle finally had a saturday off and we wanted to be able to do something. just me and him. so. i suggested that we go to taylor. because. i really wanted trappers. and. he said yes. so. i was so excited! so. we get up. and go. and. we're driving along. driving along. and. i get a couple splatters of rain. and. i'm just hoping that it doesnt rain on the way up there. because. it sure looked like it was going to rain. but. everything went well. we stopped in payson. got some food. and we kept on our way till we got to my grandma's house. 

our only real plans for our trip was trappers. we needed that for sure. so. i asked my auntie val what she was doing and. everyone was over at her house. so. i got all excited and we went over there. hung out for a while. the kids were just crazy! we drove the motorcyle over. and it was so much fun! i loved it. i think we need to buy one now!

it was real funny because brooke kept rubbing my belly and i kept telling her that we cant feel the baby move yet. but. she is so excited because she gets to be aunt brooke real soon. so. then. we went to trappers.

oh my goodness! it was amazing! definetly exceeded my expectations. 

i always get the hamburger steak. the mashed potatoes are the best!! 

 me and my sweetheart. :) 

and after we got back to aunties from eating our trappers. this is what we were greeted with. 

 they were all just so crazy! but. i loved it. i miss having them around so much! i just miss my family so much! even if they are a little bit much. :)

so. we decided that we wanted to go on a date. and. i was so happy! and excited! kyle decided that he was going to take me to a movie. and. it was really good. we went and seen in time. and. i really liked to concept. the date was really fun. because. i had butterflies when kyle was holding my hand. and. he just kept making me smile. i was just so thankful that he took me out. 

the next day we went and had breakfast at aunties. we walked outside and it was all wet. and i was freaking out. even then. because kyle had to drive home later on the motorcycle. breakfast was good. we said our goodbyes and we left because. it seemed like. the weather wont be too bad. but. it was. we had to stop at christopher creek because. i was afraid that kyles fingers were going to freeze off. and we had hit fog. and. i was just so afraid that someone wasnt going to see him. the fog went away after we got off the rim.

we stopped at safeway and got a hot chocolate. it was really good. and warmed kyle up. :) 

it was a nice trip. and. i was so glad that me and kyle got to get away. it was nice to have time away from home. :) i love my husband so much! and. i'm so thankful for the this trip and for him.

sometimes. i'm a little crazy!

so...

i was all happy. and optimistic about my new shop and getting stuff done. and. as if. an answer to my prayers. i get offered to make ipad purses. and. i'm FREAKING OUT! 

i've never made a purse before. and never used anything. and. i hardly! know how to use a sewing machine. and...

i said yes.

sure. ya. i can help you. i can make purses to sell...

what was i thinking?

this is such a big and huge project. and. right now i just feel like i'm going to fail. and. it seems a bit overwhelming. but... then. on the other hand. i'm like. ok. yea. i can do that. i'll figure it out on the way. and. i'll make something spectacular. and. i'll get it done.

so. mixed feelings. but. i think i feel more optimistic then anything.

i want to live in a van down by the river....

haha. that is probably what i'll end up doing with my life. 

no. not true. i dont know if it is this pregnany thing. or because i have no self confidence at all! but. i just feel like my little shop idea is a total disaster. its not. i can make some really cute things. maybe they arent perfect yet. but. they are still nice. i have all these different ideas that i want to do. and. i feel like. when it comes to wanting to do these things i'm at my wedding planning again. all scattered brained. and i start project that i dont finish. and. i just get all down about it. because. all the things that i made for the wedding. were either unfinished. or. kinda forgotten. 

i have some kinda realistic dreams. i want to own a little boutique that sells the jewelry, clothes, and everthing else in between that i make. i want to have cute clothes. that reflects this idea that i have. and i've drawn alot of cute sketches. and i know that if i can get that made that someone else would want to have it too. i have this idea. of romance and lace. and of time. its hard to explain. its a feeling more than a visual thing. basically everything that i tried to make my wedding into. (a little off course on somethings) but. i just have this great feeling when i think. yes. that is what i want to do. 

i think the only thing keeping me back is. inexperience. maybe education. maybe myself even. because i dont think that any of my stuff looks good. 

i love design. i love putting things together to make each and every detail amazing. but then in the big picture. its wow. i love levels. and. depth. and substance. which brings me to another thing that i'd like to do with my life. i had so many good ideas for the wedding. so many. and. i wish that i could give that feeling or setting to someone else. which is why i'd love to run a business that can give that to someone. i would love to be a wedding designer. i'd have everything vintage. and. amazing. my wedding reception. just amped up a bit. and i would also love to keep making bouquets like mine. i loved my bouquet! i know how to make it better now. and i think that there are enough brides out there looking to do something non traditional. and that i could actually sell a few. 

or possibly. i can do both! wouldnt that be a crazy idea? i could have everything for them. like. the bridesmaids dresses. bouquets. wedding reception. oh it would be so amazing. 

i think that my plan of action right now is to. come up with a few samples. try them out online. see if anyone is biting. and if they are. continue to make and sell them online. i think that now that i'm feeling better this seems like a good thing to do. i dont feel so down about it. :) i'm kinda excited now.