is that my peanut?

kyle and i had our first appointment today!!

and. it was beyond amazing! there is a baby in there!

oh my goodness. what a great day today was. ok. so. first. i have to wake up super early. and. i dont like that. hardly at all. and. i'm getting ready and i'm thinking. man. i'm really hungry. i should go and eat a muffin. and. then i'm arguing with myself. no. get your hair done first. i should have stopped. because. that was the closest i've gotten to spewing. ugh. it was horrible. so. after that i got smart and decided to go and eat something. and we go. and. i'm all stressed out. because. this is new. and i'm scared. and. i was a little bad. i meant to stop kyle. and it ended up being kind of a shove. :/ oops. sorry sweetie. 

and we go back there. and they tell me about how i need to eat. and what to do when i feel nauseous and they give me this bag that has a bunch of information in it. like some books. and some formula. and some candies that help with nausea. it was really nice. i got my blood pressure done. and then it was time that they did the ultrasound. 

haha. so. in the movies that i've seen. that goopy stuff is cold. and. they put alot on. and. i wasnt disappointed.  haha. it was pretty cold. so. before all of this i was afraid that they'd be like. oh. you actually arent pregnant. and then. they put there little ultrasound thing on my belly. and there the baby was!! peanut was just perfect. and you could see the heartbeat. it was so fast! he was so tiny! and i was just so happy! there was a baby there. and he was just perfect. oh my goodness. it kinda hit then. that me and kyle are going to be parents. and that this really is real. 

all i've been thinking about is. ok. yea. i'm pregnant. sure. there isnt much evidence except that i'm sick all the time. but. today i got my evidence and there really is going to be a baby! and i'm going to be a mommy. and kyle is going to be the best dad in the whole entire world giving my papi a run for his money. kyles already the best husband ever. so. :) i dont see this going bad or hard at all. well. it'll be hard. but. since i have kyle. it will be easier since we'll have each other. 

there my little baby is. i tried to draw a picture around the baby. but. i think that you can make it out. he's so small!! 

p.s. i hate gimp. (a photo editting program.) it was so hard to just get a circle. and. it wasnt happening. 

morning sickness blues.

this week is slowly killing me.

i was so happy. oh yea. i love being pregnant. and now...

i just want to get to the 3rd trimester. and i want to get this morning sickness. (which it never should have been called because i'm sick 24/7!!!) over with.  hate it so much. i absolutely hate being sick. but. what i hate the most. is when i think about a food that i've eaten. and it was absolutely disgusting. a stupid banquet boxed dinner. and. it makes me sick. ugh. :/ oh my goodness. 

it really does suck. i never thought that i would be sick. well. i was like. ok. i'll feel sick for a couple hours every day. for a few weeks. but. oh no. that is not how it is. and that is not how it will be. and i'll be sick for a very long time! and it will only get worse!! haha. that is how i feel. and i just dont like this. i just wanted to have a baby. not this. it is dumb. 

and. i've been so busy watching kids! bruno, emmett, jack, jordan, jonah. so many kids!! and. my stupid stomach. is killing me. and i've just been so exhausted. and. i feel bad because. i never really gave it my all when i watched them. and. i just kinda wanted to sleep the whole time. :/ oops. 

i miss my family. and friends. we should all just live in one town. like we all used to. and then everything would be great. because. i think that i would feel better. and distracted from being sick. and. i just wish my mom was here. so she could help me feel better like she always did when i was sick. because. i could really use that right now. 

just kinda hard week that i've been having. hopefully things will get better. :) 

palmer family reunion.

oh the crazies were in taylor this last labor day weekend.

i love my family. they are just so crazy. i was looking forward to this last weekend so much. i always loved when the family reunion would come around. especially when i lived in taylor and there wasnt much to do. 

but it was alot of fun. we got to do a parade float. and i was so excited for it. we havent done one of those in forever. and. i always loved when we were in the parade. and we also got shirts which we havent done in a while. and that was really exciting too. because. i loved when we did that kind of stuff. 

but our theme for this year was las vegas. and. me and kyle went as a bride and groom. (well. kinda just put a veil on. and a top hat. and called ourselves a bride and groom). and. we had alot of great activities. we played this one game where we shot paintballs at the board to try and make your hand at poker. and then the best one would win chips. and. i did pretty good. i got like. 3 or a kind of something like that. so. :) i was happy. and we also had a washoo tournament. and. i've never been good at that game. so. me and grandma were out after the first game. and. i also put my bows in for the silent auction. and they sold for $15! which. i was just going to sell for like. $5. but... maybe a little bit more wont be so bad. and. i also put in my drawing that i did of great grandma and grandpa palmer. and.... it didnt turn out so well. i did grandpa palmer really good. and then. i procrastinated and did grandma the day of. and... the shading didnt turn out well. and it didnt look like here very much either. 

we also had skits. and it was real fun. larissa and eric did this one about being married. and me and kyle really liked it alot. and we kinda looked back at past reunions. and we danced. and it was alot of fun. my family is crazy! they really are. they are loud. and opinionated. and very blunt. and sometimes they are hard to be around without getting into an argument. but. i love them. and. i'm really glad that i have them as family. 

all the little boys went as elvis's. they were so cute! (they made me want a little boy)

all the jones girls went as showgirls. i love the shirts that they made.

me and kyles costumes.

aunt vicki and jake went as people from ceasers palace. it was real fun. jake has got some serious muscles!

kyle at the slap jack table. haha. he looks real serious. uncle phil won the whole thing. it was a really fun game.

we kinda have a tradition with the petersen boys that we play whiffle ball with them. whenever we are around. and. i was pretty much the mvp. i was hitting real well. and. i even slid. i was just totally awesome. :) ( a little egotistical but. i did good!)

first comes love. then comes marriage. then comes....

Kyle and I are expanding our little family.

WE'RE PREGNANT!!!

:)

we are just so happy and excited to bring a baby into our lives. it should be born next may. Hopefully it has Kyle's eyes. There is so much to plan and get ready for before the next little Allen is born but we could not be happier.
i cant wait to be a mommy. i kinda want a boy. and i kinda want a girl. i'm not really going to be disappointed in what the baby is. i just love little boys. they are so much fun to play monster with and they are really imaginative and they seem like i could just give them anything and they'd be happy. ( the way i kinda see it). and then. i kinda want a baby girl. because she would be just so beautiful. with her blue eyes and dark hair. and i can dress her up. and make her all kinda of things. i plan on being suprised. i think that kyle wants to know the sex of the baby tho. but. i want to just have the doctor tell me when the baby comes.
we have some names for which ever way the baby comes out being. (kinda sounds funny put that way). for a little boy. we have. ian gabriel allen. and for a baby girl we have. sage elise allen. i just love those names. and i think that the baby will grow up and love their name.
we are just so happy and excited. i am looking so forward to my future. and having a family. and raising kids. and watching them grow up. i just love that the life that i've been dreaming of is starting. and that kyle and i get to go through this life raising children together. it is going to be amazing. :)

there's a baby in there! :)