happy birthday sage!

today sage is.

1.

ask her. she will tell you herself.

how. is it. that she could already be one!?

i know its cliche and everyone says it. but. seriously. time flew by so fast!

i thought that it would take forever to get to this point.

things definetly need to s l o w d o w n.!

i cant believe that i now have a toddler. i say toddler because she is nothing like a baby!

she started walking at 7 months.

knows 6 words.

uses the potty in the morning.

throws tantrums when she doesnt get her way.

and knows when she is doing something wrong. and goes and hides and tries to eat the stuff off the ground.

she wasn't a baby for long.

but. when she was. she was precious.

completely precious.

and i miss that. 

i feel like i've missed alot. 

seriously. in a blink of an eye. we are here. and she's 1.

the story of sage starts off with her already being born stubborn.

she refused to come on her own. all because her grandpa wanted her to be born on his birthday.

may 14th.

6 days after my due date.

and 1 day after my induction.

we went to the hospital on the 13th at 7:00 am. and got induced. i could feel that i was already having contractions before we got there. but. i had already felt them before and nothing had happened with those. so. i thought that that was the case with this. but. apparently not. i was already starting to contract on my own.

we got in and they immediately hooked me up to everything. but. for the first couple hours. i only had to be in bed for 20 minutes every hour and i could roam around everywhere else. which i did for as long as i could.

i did have some help with getting things more started and i used a mesh to try and get things going faster.

at about. 4 hours. they gave me and iv. i'm not really sure why. it might have been because i was having contractions every 4 minutes. i really should have asked about that one. so. i decided that i wasnt going to walk around anymore and just stay in bed. because i was starting to get uncomfortable.

i felt like i was moving along. and they nurse came in and said that i was only 2 cm dilated. i was crushed a little because i thought that the medicine would work more.

so for the rest of the day i had visitors and my contractions were getting steadily harder. but. i wasn't put on pitocin yet. we had a bed brought in for kyle. and he slept like a baby all night. i did get some sleep which was crazy. because. i was hurting so badly.

so. not to much action that day. woke up the next and things started getting bad. they checked me first things. and still only 2 cm. and so. i tried everything i could after that to get things moving along. i walked as much as i could. and i started bouncing on the ball. 

2 hours went by. and they started the pitocin. and decided that it was time to break my water. i was still only at 2 cm. i was worried because they said it would hurt more. and i was crushed. because. i was stuck at 2 cm for almost 30 hours! and. i let that go on for about another hour.

i had always planned on having a natural birth. i wanted to go through it. 

so. when i decided to get the epidural because i was still stuck at 2 cm. i felt like i cheated myself. but. i was in labor for up to that point 32 hours. and. i couldn't do it anymore.

but. even though i felt bad then. i dont think i could have had sage any other way. because. i got a 4 hour nap. and when i woke up it was time to push! and. that only took 20 minutes. 

and there she was. all. covered in goo. but. i didnt care at all.
kyle cut the cord. and. they put her on me. and she refused to cry. she came out. calm. and we had to rub her around a bit before she would start crying. that way we could get her lungs all cleared.
it was perfect.

this year has gone by so dang fast!
i miss my baby.
i'm so glad that she is so easy to please. and. that she is so smart!
every mother says that. but. i know that she is alot more advanced than other babies.
not all of them have got this stuff down.
and she does!
:)

i'm looking forward to many more birthdays. alot more head butting. and being her mom.
i sure do love my beautiful baby girl.

 

my silly little sage

So little time! And how Kyle is so awesome.

I feel like I have no time for my family anymore. And it is pretty sad. I miss them all the time. Even when I am with them because I know in a couple hours I will be gone from them again. I have to enjoy them every chance I get. It's even sadder with Sage because I get home and I have to help her get ready for bed. So. She's out of it and I don't get to see her tricks and things that she has learned.
But. It is only temporary and soon I will get to have my family back.
Now if you didn't know. Kyle is flippin amazing. Up until this year he never thought much of valentines day. And it is one of my favorite holidays. Unfortunately I didn't have any time or energy to get anything for him this year. And he gave me the best most amazing gift ever.
My favorite gift was these coupons he gave me for two free yes's ( he tends to tell me no...kinda a lot ) and. So this was probably the best gift I could have ever received from him. He also gave me food items that had the cutest sayings on them.
This weekend. My parents took sage with them and we had the whole weekend to ourselves. And we went snowboarding. It was so much fun. A lot harder than I thought. I fell down a lot. (And ended up hurting myself..) oops. But Kyle did so good! I was so jealous of his skills. It has been an awesome weekend and is getting me real excited to move to idaho so that way I can play good wife and mother for real. My favorite part of this weekend though has been sleeping without worrying about Sage. It has been a little slice of heaven. But then every time I see a baby. I can't wait to have her back. I miss my baby so much!